So you all know that I do my best not to bitch about work, and almost NEVER complain about clients. And that really has to do with the fact that I really love 98% of my clients. TO DEATH. I am fortunate, beyond fortunate, with the people who find me. But sometimes I just melt down and I rant a little. Rest assured, this is NOT that kind of post.
My work is truly an amazing gift that I have given myself. Yes, in my busy months I sleep little, work 60 hour a week, and spend 75% of my time RUNNING MY BUSINESS [not shooting]. And THAT is a story for another day [the one to clear up the myth that it's a BLAST being a professional photographer]. But right now, what I do is a gift to me [and thus my family because HAPPY MOM = HAPPY FAMILY and don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise]. This year, I have been fortunate to photograph some of my VERY FAVORITE repeat clients. Clients who have been with me for years. It’s also been a chance to meet some new ones [like I think I might love my new clients tomorrow!].
It’s also a gift to me that I have STUDIO SPACE to play, to work, and to call my own. And apparently to be able to say “please come keep me company tonight at 8PM… bring wine…” Again, another story.
But the studio, it’s really opened up possibilities for me. Let’s get something straight, it is PAINFUL to write my rent check each month. That is money that could be in my pocket, paying for home repairs, buying things the kids need, going into an IRA. And should I ever decide I don’t want the expense [and perhaps would rather fund my Lululemon/Anthropologie/Frye Boot/Weekly Facials habit], it’s going to give the perception that my business isn’t doing well, when in fact, that might be the opposite. But right now, it’s my space and it allows me to meet my clients in a professional environment, show them my work, and honestly, it gave me a place to store all my crap.
But it’s kind of been under utilized and that was kind of bumming my high. I had a vision in my mind, executed, and when I was done, it just didn’t feel right. From there, I let it get messy. And I hated it more. Then I enlisted the help of a simply DIVINE design genius and she gave it one look and was like “WHOA. GREAT SPACE. BAD DESIGN.” And from that, gave me some tips using her high/low strategy and I was able to slowly execute her plan. It needs a few more details, but finally, when I get into work, I sigh and I am happy. So thank you Katie Rosenfeld… you and your daily blog inspire me.
OK, so land the plane Kristina.
I decided to try to push myself to create an indoor studio space that would do two things [1] to photograph in the lifestyle portrait style that I love, using primarily natural light, and avoid creating a typically proppy studio look {especially with newborns} and [2] to learn how to use my overabundance of natural light to create the perfect, classic, studio portrait. And while those two things are almost on completely different ends of the spectrum, they both to me represent clean, unadorned, timeless photography. They also each provided me with a different set of learning challenges and gave me something to get excited about. [The dork in me is FANATICAL about learning].
So yesterday I decided to go forth with a solid round of good old fashion practice [in addition to the previous day's session]. See? This is where I can repeat “MY JOB IS A GIFT.” Because Tuesdays and Thursdays are my days home with my kids… and the fact that I can turn them into productive working hours, while keeping my kids [and their friends] amused is AMAZING. So I spent the day arranging and re-arranging set ups. Trying out the light from each side of the building, and at different times of the day, pushing my gear when I had to, running to download, grabbing a fresh card, and starting over again. And it was SO refreshing to be able to say “wow, these SUCK” and “holy cow, I am in LOVE.” And with some, it was so great to get really constructive peer feedback on what I need to tweak and then get super excited for next week when I can set it up again and see if I can improve. [The dork in me is also FANATICAL about getting feedback from my peers... because my mom and friends will always tell me I am awesome, even when I am not].
So here’s the result of it, with some notes. What a great deal of learning to be had. I am so excited to finish the room… to nail down the light the way I vision it… to shoot! So stay tuned for some studio tours, get together opportunities and of course session opportunities.





You may want to file these under Mommy Goggles, but honestly, I am in love with these. They are actually SO GOOD at doing what I ask, and giving me what I need from them, and as long as I move fast, and keep it simple, they are gems. One of the biggest things that has helped me working with kids is to greatly improve my instructions. “Look up” doesn’t work if you need them to raise their head a bit, but instead “follow my finger” while you raise it just slightly. “Smile” doesn’t work either… that’s a recipe for gritted teeth and scrunched smiles. But instead, “Think about what you are getting for your birthday.” And laugh, well, that’s easy. Just mention farts. So being able to manage commands has really reduced the amount of stress and frustration during our shoots.

Peace. Grace. Thanks. Calm. Fortune. Mine.

Another gift, while we are on the topic, is that these two girlies will have their friendship, almost from week one, documented and preserved. They are truly best friends, speak in their own language, and are tremendously sad when apart. Her mom and I are eternally grateful for their bond, and that we have them in our lives.



i am so in love with these kids and the pics (and EVERYTHING that janey i wearing … seriously).